Dear Ernie 💞
It looks like at this point in my life, I need to tell the whole world how grateful and blessed I am to be you. You are the best me ever. I understand myself so much because you are me. You are always helping me to get through seemingly scary turns in life. Whatever would me be without you, whatever could me do without you. What am I if you’re not me. You are my best friend, you’re always there when I am sad and lonely. You take the best care of me. You are for me, a great listener. You are my great source of comfort. You are who the Lord needs me to be. I share my joy’s with me, I share my pain with me, I share my fun moments with me, I share my extremely sad moments with me. Me is all I have. I’m so very grateful to God for (making me, you) and for (making you, me). We make a great team. We’re a fantastic pair😊. When the dark days come, I and me light the way through till it ends with strength from JEHOVAH The Most High God. HE who sits on HIS throne and rules HIS world with True Love💟💝💟, the way only HE can🙏. Looking back at my past, I must confess that growing up was fun. When I was very young, there was one word that could best describe me, it starts with a “T-r-o-u-b-l-e-s-o-m-e”.
Little me was very very troublesome and always up to do the most mischievous things. Mummy shouted my name almost all the time,every single day😄😆. Little me would whisper to herself ,”why does mama always shout when I’m busy”😅. I remember mum asking if I was done upon seeing how I had pushed orange and banana peels down the drains of the kitchen sink😉. With a confused look😕 on my face I reluctantly nodded in agreement then I got myself busy by creating another huge mess almost immediately. Touching my dolls🎎 was a no! no!😠. They meant the world to me😊. All in all I’d say my childhood was my greatest adventure, from age zero, to age one, two, then three, four and five. Age five was my golden🌞 year. At age five I had become the me then, which is the me now. GOD revealed to the world so much of who HE was in me. I am who HE is and it’s who I am,sincerely it’s my calling,my destiny, and identity. I remember treating my dolls, Ylitabel and Aimy as alive as they were to me. Mama called us the “noisy threesome” and that simply defined us. We did everything together, we even got sick together then mum would take us to see the doctor. Taking my medications was fun because my dolls took theirs too. Going to school with them was a secret I would only tell when busily licking my chocolate ice cream🍦😅. While growing up I had a long list filled with the names of everyone I knew. I couldn’t help but write them down, they meant so much to me. What can I say, little me had an enormous heart💓 which grew bigger as the years went by. If I met you for the first time, I asked your name, if I couldn’t spell you must be ever so kind to help me by spelling it out for me. Then on getting home my long list of names welcomes its newest members. The words of GOD which are written in the Bible tells us that GOD is Love. The love of LOVE(God) for us is unexplainable. The Bible writes in:
1 John 4:16 – 17
(And we have known and believed The Love That GOD Hath To Us. GOD is Love,and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in GOD, and GOD in him. Herein is our love made perfect, that we may have boldness in the day of judgement, because as HE is, so are we in this world😇, Amen).
I believe in showing love towards one another. I believe in loving each other as GOD does. As young as I was then I knew who my Father was and I knew I am who my Father is. I was such a loving person then and its who I am now. As my Lord God is love so am I love. The truth will always remain true,while showing love we encounter difficulties, be them rejection, mistreatment,misunderstandings,then loosing so much but gaining very little or sometimes nothing. JESUS also suffers these difficulties because HE loves humanity, GOD is also not recognized by many, HE is placed last on the list of priorities by millions of people, sometimes GOD doesn’t even make it on,despite HIM loving us so deeply😳. It’s such a pity but GOD never gives up on us.
How does it feel when the love you feel and show towards someone is reciprocated😊. It feels really good doesn’t it. There’s this joy that comes with it, it’s almost unexplainable isn’t it 😊. This action makes you feel a sense of belonging creating an inner peace deep within. The kind that calms you by being ever so comforting. Let’s toss to see the other side of the coin shall we. I believe this side is quite predictable wouldn’t you agree😊. What if showing love comes with rejection, ingratitude and the act of it not being reciprocated. I guess we would be heartbroken by feeling very unneeded. This is bound to make us sad😔. We might never open up to anyone anymore. We might keep to ourselves, then coil back into our private space,wouldn’t we😊.However this shouldn’t be , ever heard of loving without expectations.
Loving without expecting is a blessing for when you love whole heartedly, when you give it your all,its a kind of love that’s only noticed and appreciated by GOD because HE is love. Only LOVE can appreciate a rare act of true, pure and effortless love that comes from the heart. When love is true,it forms in the heart❤💟❤ then it becomes effortless. If you love in this manner it only means the I AM dwells in you and you are who GOD is and its who you are. The blessings of the Omnipresent will forever abide with you,Amen🙏. Little me visited most of the beautiful persons who made up her list. I remember feeling so excited anytime they opened the doors of their home to me. I smiled so much for them to know how simply happy I was . My Beckah(the elder me) always went with me. Mama asked her to 😊. My visits to those that were close to me was made from time to time.
Mama allowed me speak on phone to those that lived far. Everyone in my neighborhood knew me and I them 😊. I shouted my ‘Hello’s to them with a broad smile when I walked back home from school with Beckah. When the nights came, my prayers could be heard from across the hall. Mama told me GOD would definitely hear my prayer because my voice echoed through the whole house. She continued by convincing me of how certain she was that my prayers would travel through the roof and into the sky then eventually to Heaven,Gods home. Mama would laugh so loud,she would kiss my cheeks and pat my back. My (Guardian Angel😇) I remember her whisper. I guess I’ll forever be my Mama’s Angel😇 My Mama is the love of my life you know😁. My prayers were endless, what do you expect, I had a very huge family which I love with all my heart. Mama helped me pray if she wasn’t too busy. When mama had to take care of Baby Cee. I prayed with Ylitabel and Aimy. We prayed for all the beautiful people I love and care for😊.
Dear me, someone has to care, someone has to be there, someone has to help, someone has to do something someway, somehow. Caring means allowing the world to see and know who GOD is through you. GOD needs us to be there for each other, HE needs us to love and support one another. The evil that we see happening in our world today, the wickedness that we carry in our hearts hurts GOD so much, it breaks HIS heart. Why are we bitter, envious, greedy, bad tempered, and selfish. What do we hope to achieve by harbouring all these negative emotions which eventually become a habit. Lets commit our ways unto the Lord, let us allow the HolySpirit to guide our actions by developing ourselves through the word of God with prayer. By doing this we help God to help us by creating in us a clean heart and renewing the right spirit within us then God would not cast us away from HIS presence ,HE would not take away HIS HolySpirit from us but HE would restore unto us the Joy of HIS Salvation,and the peace that surpasses all understanding will forever abide in us.
A new heart also I will give you, and a new spirit will I put within you, and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you a heart of flesh, Amen.
With a heart of flesh we become more understanding, more loving,more compassionate and more considerate.
There’s nothing wrong with serving wholeheartedly, with helping each other out of sincerity in love, with appreciating the simplicities in love. My heart is filled with joy and gratitude to GOD. I believe GOD channels the blessings of others through me, I believe I’m an answer to the prayers of others by assisting and helping out. I believe I exist to impact the lives of zillions and generations yet unborn.. I believe all I am and all I have is for the benefit of others,generations depend on me. I just can’t fail, it’s not an option. It’s a calling, an obligation, a duty and a responsible.
At age five I had the names of all who I love and care for written on paper, and now I’m truly honoured to tell GOD I got rid of my list on paper because I have all of you in my heart 💕. I don’t ever believe I could ever be able to stop saying I love you. I do not need to reason through,there isn’t a rational perspective to judge from, must there be reasons explaining why I’m always there for you even when I don’t know you. If there must be reasons then I’m sorry I don’t have any. I don’t know why I care so much, I just do 😊.
In John 3:16
God so loved the world, that HE gave HIS only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in HIM would not perish but have eternal life🙏.
GOD’S love is unconditional, HE loves us even when we push HIM away. The Lord is always there for us in those moments when it feels like HE has let us down and we only seem to want to blame HIM for everything. Trust me HE always understands our pain. When we feel so lonely, GOD covers us with HIS arms, HE keeps us in HIS warm hug through it all. I choose to love the way GOD does, I’ll be here for you, we’ll cry together, we’ll mourn together, we’ll go through pain together, we’ll laugh together, we’ll have fun together. I’ll hold your hand and together we’ll face life head on, we’ll survive whatever comes our way as GOD goes before us.
Dear me, GOD’S the best thing that ever happened to me. This is why I’ll share HIM with the whole world by telling of HIS Love for Humanity. Chere Moi, Aie foi, Dieu est le grand guerisseur, Dieu est au controle, Ca va aller et Dieu est avec toi😇🙏
I’d love to share with you my truth which is the pillar that holds my life together,God makes it all better. GOD is the reason why I smile in pain, with GOD I understand in my confusion, HE is my source for reasoning. God never fails to light up each day with the sun and HE warms each nights with the moon. HE covers the sun with clouds when it’s scorching, HE brings down the rains to refresh vegetation then lights up the sky with a beautiful rainbow🌈 when the rains pass away. During the last weeks of each year HE sends the snow❄ falling,or causes a peculiar change in weather creating a season that brings us all home just in time for Christmas 🎅🎄.
Nature never fails in bringing us the days and the nights. The future continues to remain unknown yet The Creator of life who is The Alpha,The Omega, The Ageless, The Changeless,The All Knowing and All Powerful GOD sits on HIS throne. GOD’S always in control. For me and I we’ll forever trust, obey and simply believe in Yahweh.
I guess I’ve told me all there is to know about Rudelle. I’m ending here but not without telling you that GOD loves you so much. Trust me HE will always be there for you okay. Believe me life won’t always be a comfortable bed of roses🌹🌺🌹. However when the bed becomes as hard as stone and as cold as ice, GOD lies so close HE draws us unto HIMSELF and cushions us in HIS warmth then HE becomes our soothing Comfort💞💕💞. The kind of comfort that eventually forms our strength then without knowing how we begin to Survive 💞💕.